So called

Wandered through oceans far and wide,
leaped through every fire and void.
Swam across endless abyss,
Even tasted a viper's kiss.

All in the name of love (so called),
all for a beauty that enthralled.
All for a meaningless sway,
that left me alone one fine day.

Until, that is, I found you,
I came to know that love be true.
Came to know that oceans deep,
were in front of your love a meaningless heap.

(Your) Love, pure as a rivulet after rain,
clear and sweet, eraser of pain.
(Your) Affection immense and strong,
loving (you) back I could do no wrong.

Doubts I have, fears I endure
but I am sure of your affection, so pure.

time to move on

the sun has set and night dawns
the arrow has been fired and is gone
get your act together brother
for now its time to move on.

all that was to be already is
of all that could have been
it had to be this and only this
no use thinking what could have been.

another day awaits another day has spawned
another chance to live, to try, to cry
so get your act together brother
for now its time to move on.

My Drain

It happened one night in October
When I was out in the rain,
I was fully drunk on love not sober,
Too drunk to feel the pain

In love was I so madly dear
That I hardly noticed the drain,
For I walked right into it without steer
While I was out in the rain.

Then it happened again in January
When I was out in the rain,
I had been dumped, was full of misery
I was in too much pain.

Was thinking of her, the imitation of an elf
That I hardly noticed the drain,
Into it I dumped myself
Dumped into it again.

Then again in the month of March,
When I rediscovered the reason for life main,
I rejoiced the end of my long drawn search,
That I took a walk instead of the train.

Now call me stupid call me insane,
For I hardly noticed the drain.
The same one that had bathed me twice,
Bathed me yet again.

All through the year until December,
I lost a little but a lot did I gain
I kept myself safe, far as I remember,
And kept away from all stain.

But in the end when all rejoiced,
The end of the year; the drain yet again
Called to me and literally voiced,
To complete the ritual simple and plain.

No More.....

I have walked long enough brother
i can carry further no more,
i have had much on my shoulder
and on my heart even more,

i am tired now and wish to rest,
awake me not from this slumber brother,
for i wish to wake not, never, forever,
i am tired and can carry no more.

even my breathing is a noise,
the rustle of wind a thunder,
these whispers are too loud for my taste
and this feather is like a boulder.

i have walked long enough brother,
put me out of my misery,
i give up, i quit, bring another,
in my stance and give me my finery.

cover me with this shroud,
and let me rest mine eyes,
let me hide away from this crowd,
help me, cross over the skies.

Memories unforgettable and unforgotten

Chased by ghosts past,
O soul when will thou breathe thy last?
When will these phantoms stop chasing,
you in your dreams un-phasing?
When will these specters of old,
stop appearing before your eyes tired and cold?
Will there be no respite? Will there be no relief?
Will there be no relief for thy unshakable belief?
When will these hurtful memories cease to affect?
When will this burden lighten my chest?
O sinful soul! When shall thee breathe,
the clean fresh air and not let the wreathe
of some memory coming back to haunt thee?
When will this be? Pray I, please tell me.

Life

Life aint a bed 'o roses,but it aint a thorn bush neither
Life sure ain't sweet, but it ain't bitter either
There may be love, there may be lust
But sure as hell you will be dust
So live your life full while you must
For its not about what you lost but that you lost all and still trust.

i lied.....

I lied to you a lot dear, and I hope you forgive me
I lied about the way I am, I lied a lot simply,
I lied to you that I loved you so,
When I loved you more than you cared,
I lied to you that I had to leave,
To let you live, by yourself and not scared.

I lied to you a million lies,
Still one truth did I tell,
I lied to you as the crow flies,
But in love with you I fell.

Forgive me not, for I am at sin,
For I lied to you through thick and thin,
Forgive me not, for I did lie,
About me being innocent, about me being shy.

I lied and lied and then lied some more,
I lied to you, till your heart I tore.

Now dear, its all come back,
To tear at me heart, cut me some slack.
All the lies, told, white and black,
Are hear to gnaw, at me in a pack.

Now that I see my end so near,
Its not fear that grips me but deep sorrow,
For every moment that I spent with you,
I feared for the lonely tomorrow.

Forgive not me, nor my lies,
As I deserve your hatred.
But forget me not beyond the skies,
Lying about the love putrid.